Love for Love's Sake

There are so many amazing people you meet via the world of adoption. 

On the whole I would generalize them as people who have a heart with love to share and seek out a child to pour that energy into.  A way of building a family.  That is what it was for me, but as I've met more and more people, who share this road to build family and spread love, aside from the average adoptive family there are stand-out people who are more like angels living amongst us, who take it to an entirely different plane of comprehension than anything I could come up with on my own.

They are inspired, to spread love and honor God by going above and beyond the regular protocol, to rescue/protect/shelter/honor... I don't know the right word; to love without condition a damaged soul. 

To seek out the weaker beings and less obviously optimistic circumstances,  to stretch further, and dig deeper to go to a level most of us would be too timid to risk treading towards, because it carries greater risk, less security of a positive ending.

I came across this blog, and this family's story is sad and inspirational and awe inspiring and I wish I could love and relinquish expectations this freely and find hope in the darkest corner and trust that no matter what,  God  is in control, and doesn't require my worries or concerns to block what is the ultimate act of living in his image. 

To love and accept people for no other reason than you are born and that makes you worth everything in his eyes, and if you are lucky enough to cross paths with one of those angels who walk amongst us who  are here to be an example of how to live your best life to take note and absorb some of that hope and faith.

Please take a moment to visit this blog
Hope for Elisyn - A journey to heal her broken Heart and read the story of this family and the leap of faith they took to love and save this beautiful girl.

Perhaps if we gather together to lift her up in prayer, we can be part of a wondrous opportunity to bring hope and happiness to this family and brighten our own life experience by sharing our energies to lift up a family member in need.

I am so touched that people have such a capacity for giving and loving, I pray God will let her light shine long and strong here on earth before he calls
this angel home.

Hug  your loved ones extra tight, because our blessings are so much more than we comprehend.

xoxo

What do you think of me now?

Do you notice anything different?  I've gotten an extreme make-over; well not me per say, but my blog. 

My dear friend Christie, took the time out of her very busy schedule to bless me with an entirely new look and feel for my little corner of blogville. 

I am crazy for the new look and inspired to pay more attention to posting on a more consistent basis, but more than that I am so touched that she would pause her very busy life to invest her time and talent on me.

Christie is one of my benefits acquired through the world of adoption. The wait brought us together, but after we were done waiting we got busy becoming real friends and I am so grateful for her companionship, humor, understanding and friendship. 

She and her family now reside in my heart and I am so thankful to count her as a true friend.

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Happy Birthday Aubriana Rose

My sweet child, what joy you have brought to me; with your soft and gentle demeanor. 

You were born such a little lady, I am so lucky to be able to indulge

your desires in all things girlie!

 

I find it difficult  to restrain myself  in feeding your passion for fashion!

 

I never realized  how much I would be joining you on experiencing the joys
 of being a little girl, once again I live in a land of fairies and princesses
and all things possible.

Your delight in this is contagious to all of us, and who can resist a request to dance
with a princess or accompany her to the latest ball?

My little flower has slowly and surely revealed herself to have a

fun and mischievous petal or two!

 

That is where I see you taking on characteristics that I recognize as my own

 and I know nurture has complimented your nature; I truly see myself in your refection

Thank you for making my days and nights sweeter with your presence and

filling up my heart with love and beauty.

All my love and adoration,

Mommy

You are my Sonshine

Dear K-man,

As I reflect on the last four years of your life, I am still surprised that the thing I never thought I wanted was the very thing I needed most; a son.

 A son treats his mother with adoration and devotion, she is his first "true-love" and his allegience to her is unfaltering and strong for all of his days.

You are my prince, you brighten my day with unsolicited declarations of love and affection. Every emotion and feeling I pour into you comes back to wash over me ten-fold.

 I cherish the fact that you still desire my attention when you are playing, yelling "look at me Mommy" for any physical act you attempt.

 Things I love about you:

Without prompting you will lean over and kiss me and say "I love you".

Whatever I make, you think I am the "Best" cook in the world.

When I am sick you cover me with your special blanket and leave your beloved "teddy" with me so I'll feel better.

You have a truly tender heart, for your sister, your dog, family and friends.

You are FUNNY; way beyond your 48 months on Earth.

 I am saddened that you are growing up so quickly and yet I can't wait to see the amazing man you are destined to become.

 You have had my heart since the first moment I saw you and your hold on me grows stronger every day.

 My wish for you is to lead those who are weaker than you, follow the example of those who are brave and righteous, and share your gifts with others to create harmony and peace to those you reach.

Happy Birthday my beautiful, beautiful, boy!

With all of my love, Mommy

Sleep, come find me and lie beside me and soothe my weary soul

If I had to account for how and where I spend my time,  I couldn't reliably tell you in all honesty. 
I just know suffering from insomnia has taken the meaning of time and turned it upside down.  I spend my days trying to catch up on sleep that was not captured during the moonlit hours of night time.

It creates a feeling of craziness, of not being normal.  The Internet has become a companion and an enemy of sorts.  It gives me something to occupy those long dark nights where the noises you hear always seem more ominous than in the light of day; at it's best,it is an uninterested companion.

I no longer see my friends or neighbors, as I am so exhausted by sunrise, I sequester myself to a falsely darkened room and spend my days in fitful sprints of sleep; awakened repeatedly by deliveries, phone calls, and Life in general. 

It seems like a punishment, but I have yet to figure out what  crime I have committed that the penalty is to virtually be removed from society and normalcy. I am trying to make use of this time to self evaluate and review what life has to offer in the midst of all this solitude.  Self reflection has not rewarded me with many answers to these queries.

I am a person who hates waste, particularly of things that are finite and irreplaceable.  How ironic that years of my life have been swept away chasing sleep and renewal of energy and hope.

Perhaps this is a gift in disguise, as is often the case when we have burdens assigned to us.  I have no doubt when I find the solution to my problem it will cease to exist because I found the meaning in the challenge.

Until that time, I bid you a truly "good" night.